ThotLog

I live my life by very specific numbers. Every day I wake up, I take a piss, I hop on the scale. Every day my success or failure is based on what I see. Success is in short supply these days.

Got back from a splurge trip 2 weeks ago today. It's hard to believe it's been that long. Add to this that I have walked an average of 7 miles a day for the last week. That brings my net average calories to well under 300 per day.

Four days ago I hit a new low at 160.4. The next day I went up to 161.6. Yesterday AND today, I weighed the EXACT SAME amount. Not even off by a tenth of a pound. I've said this before but it bears repeating: it's very hard to rationally account for the lack of weight loss sometimes. I went through maybe two other similar phases. I distinctly only remember when I was at 226 for a week. This is worse, because I have been working my ass off whereas at 226 I just sat around the house.

This is why most weight loss fails. You need to see success, but sometimes you won't, and it doesn't matter what you do. You have to rely on past success and have faith that eventually you will see results. You can't look in a mirror and tell short-term differences, and weight loss never speeds up, it only slows down the more you do it. The only tool you have to measure short-term success and keep you motivated are the numbers on a scale.

Even as I write all this depressing nonsense, I know I will eventually see results, because I've been doing this a while. I've done the math, and it doesn't add up. I don't know if my weight before was too low or if I'm retaining too much water now, or if the gravity of the earth is playing tricks on me. The only thing I know is that I will win this fight, luckily I'm not that far anyways. It's much easier to be confident the more you lose, and the longer you diet.

Movie Review: Twilight Eclipse

As bad as I expected. These movies are so retarded. I can understand Jacob's chest as pornography, but little else in the movie makes sense. You've got 100 year old vampire that acts like a child, and a meathead who has no problems with forcing himself on a girl who's told him no several times. So hard to choose.

I also think the oversized wolves look dumb, but little really is in keeping with supernatural tradition in this movie. It took me a long time to figure out why vampires were making weird crunching noises when they got hit. Oh.. they are like stone... right. Edward saving sex for marriage. What a moron. Don't come crying to me when she's a dead fish in the sack Ed.

I don't quite grasp why it's dangerous for them to do the nasty anyways. My gf thinks it's because he would bite her uncontrollably. I think that's retarded. I thought maybe since they are hard as stone and strong he might physically fuck a hole in her. That's pretty dumb too, but it's in-line with this movies retard level in general.

I did like the vampire fights mildly. Or maybe by that time I was so bored that it seemed decent.

Movie Review: The Sorcerer's Apprentice

Better than I expected from what is essentially a kids movie. What always annoys me about these magicky movies is how they don't go to any real lengths to convince me that someone with a gun couldn't just pop a cap in their ass (when they weren't ready for it obviously). Being a powerful sorcerer in modern times means very little without some sort of passive defense against high powered projectiles.

The main character's voice is really irritating, and the plot stuff about using science is laughable. The love sub-plot is irritating as well. Kind of hard to remember how I came away from this with a positive reaction now.