ThotLog

I'm fairly certain my resting heart rate used to be above 80 beats a minute, which is considered unhealthy. Makes sense, since I rarely exercised and was homicidally obese. Day before yesterday I walked ten miles, yesterday I walked none. Yesterday was the more interesting of the two days. I felt weak the entire day, and kept giving into the urge to eat. I think I racked up 8 snack packs before the day was out.

So last night I'm in bed, and I notice my heart seems slow. I count my beats for a minute twice, and both times it was from 45-50 beats. Normal healthy resting is usually 60. So this concerned me, and still does. I didn't die last night obviously, so that's good. I just don't know what's up. If this low bpm is a good thing due to all the walking or a bad thing due to electrolyte or other health issues. Just don't know. The weight is on the side of bad, because of other issues I experience like light headedness and general fatigue.

I can't just stop dieting though, so I've done what research I can and have come up with nothing concrete. Like most issues, you have to have special tests done to find out anything for sure, and that's not going to happen.

I am finally down to a new low after 23 days. 162.4. No telling if this is the beginning of something good or if I'll be stuck there for a while.

The apartment I live in is decent looking, but looks are where it ends. Something very gross lies beyond the fresh walls, ceiling, and carpet. Tons and tons of little black beetles for one. I set out this sticky traps all over the house, and there's 3 that have to be replaced every week because they are full of these beetles. Two beetles tried to crawl into bed with my girlfriend last night. Most are small, but I've seen two giant ones this week. They don't scare me like spiders, and they aren't as annoying as the ants we had at our last apartment, but they are a nuisance anyways. I have to hand-vacuum about ten of them a day: some living, most dead.

My gf thinks they might be biting us while we sleep, but we'd know. These things are two clumsy, large, and slow to get away with such a stealth operation, even if they weren't half dead by the time they enter the premises (apparently the building was 'treated' for them last year at some point).

Ordered Starcraft 2 from gamestop. The only real time strategy game I ever really cared for was Command and Conquer: Generals. God that game was epically good. Not even sure what it's secret was. But whatever it was, they lost it in later sequels where they went back to this supergay thing about a dude in a trenchcoat playing a serious version of doctor evil with lots of horrible live-action drama during the campaign. Despite that, it was the gameplay itself that was just boring. They tried to do new ways of building and maintaining and it just wasn't fun. Hopefully I didn't make a mistake ordering SC2.