ThotLog

Tonight I weighed in at 152.4 pounds. It's still sinking in, but it's extremely gratifying. This means that my life has to make a major shift. I can't keep dieting restrictively and focusing on cardio forever. For me, the goal of 153 has been reached. UFC is tomorrow. I'll likely jump back up, and take a week to get back down again. After that, I have to start to work on 155 as a stable weight while increasing my calories to 1500 per day. This will likely take a few weeks, then I tweak my calorie count as needed to maintain that weight.

I chose 153 for the reason that it's exactly one half of what I started out at. It happened to be a good weight, right in the middle of normal bmi for someone my height. Obviously I don't really weigh 153. When you only eat 700 calories a day, your weight is really 10 pounds heavier than what the scale says. I could say it's water and food mass, but even then I realize it's hard to believe, but you will need to take my word for it, I know this from firsthand experience.

So in a way I still have some pounds to lose, but at this point the dieting will start to unwind, and I'll start to lead a more normal life, if that's possible.

The whole thing is surreal, because I've seen myself as fat since middle school, even though back then I was just a little chubby. I kept growing until I was huge. I coped with hardship by eating, and I had a decent amount of it until about four years ago. I knew what I was eating was bad and in quantities that were harmful and keeping me fat. I just felt like I needed it. It was my daily drug. In a way, my snack packs are each a hit. So unfortunately that means I'm still an addict. There's no cure for this addiction though, because our physiology requires intake. I believe I can manage it now though.

UFC not at Adams

I'm actually happy about how this worked out. The UFC is at my friends, who happens to live in the town with the best meats we know of for grilling. It also will result in the least monetary investment of all options, and the driving lengths will be much shorter than going to my brother's. I am hoping this can be a common practice, as I'm sure it would be my favorite place to watch it, unless I can cheapen the expense of having it at my place.

Farewell PS3

Sent my broken PS3 off to Sony for replacement with a PS3 slim. Fedex took forever to get here, then I found out that within an hour I had to drive 50 miles to a staffed Fedex location to get it shipped off. Sped my ass off in the Camaro, only to get tar sprayed on it during road construction. Got to the Fedex within minutes of closing, but got it sent off. I hope the turnaround time has been exagerrated. I can't wait!

City of Meh

City of heroes: Going Rogue is ok. The graphics are fairly well upgraded. My character's powers seem cool, but finding a group has been hit and miss, and my character needs a group. The powersets are support based. I can solo, but it's not that enjoyable to do so for extended periods. I'm hoping I can make the most of the next few weeks.

Squeenix is claiming their Final Fantasy 14 MMO will procede with an open beta starting in just a few days. Open could mean many different things. Seems unlikely that it will be truly open, but if it is, I will be trying it out.